March 4, 2002
You might be wondering why I don't seem very surprised (or at all upset) by my firing. To be blunt, I kinda saw it coming. I just didn't think it would happen as soon as it did.
A couple weeks earlier, when I finally had my review (after four or five reschedulings) more than a year and a half after the previous one, the HR director and the CTO both made sure they brought up negative things about my performance. I'm by no means perfect, but from what I gathered I was the only person this happened to. Not a good sign.
Also, the CTO had basically been riding me every chance I gave her to -- even for the smallest mistakes. Something I had mentioned wanting to take the lead on was assigned to someone else who had no real knowledge of it, and for no good reason. It's almost like there was an effort to make me quit. I'm pretty sure, looking back, that it was.
And like I said, I almost did. But instead I was fired. Which accomplishes the same basic thing, but now they have to pay me. To be honest, the little bit of pride I lost by sitting around waiting to be fired is worth it knowing that I'm still costing them money. The vindictive part of me digs that.
